Do Not Ask

Do not ask what you
Do not want to know

You gave me heart
Only to take it away

I no longer cry for there is no longer any tears left with which to cry

Touch

I swoon at his touch
I lose myself in him
When his flesh touchs mine

Something emo from high school

Strength
Power
Safety
Freedom
Prisoner

Pulls from both sides
What is truth
Each side gives it's own

Control

I am not in control
All I want is to understand
But understanding is not in my reach
I do not know anything anymore
I must be in control of me
I cannot
I just do not want to be under anyone's control

Cabin Window

We are inside
Looking out

In here we have protection
In here we have love
In here we are naive

The world is out there
And we are afraid
To go out into it

From in here it seems
Black
Cold
No light
No protection

But once outside
It is beautiful
There is light
There is protection
There is love

Those inside think they are secure
But are no more secure
Then those outside

Day 4 – Your guilty pleasure game

Lego, anything lego, give me a horrible story, from something I do not care at all about, but is a lego game, and I will play it until I have all the offline achievements (if online achievements did not require finding someone that is actually competent I would do all those too). X-Box 360 version of lego games are preferable. The lego list is not short

Too much laughing not enough keeping track

I am going to make it dirty, for Brian. ~ A
I have never had a girl say that. ~ B
What?  Oh.  I am going to make it SOOO dirty. ~ A

I disarm them.  They no longer have arms, and are slowly bleeding to death. ~ E

Platinum enema. ~ J
Platenema ~D

Day 3 – A game that is Underrated

Most of my gamer friends think Civ Rev was kind of a waste of the Civ title. It is certainly not the game that other civilizations were, but it is great for what it is, that being a game that you play when you only have a little time, but are not in the mood to spend that time head shoting random dot bad guy. It is cute, it is silly, and it has you use your brain, a little

Day 2 – Your favorite character

Just because of the craziness that has surrounded the character is my games I shall go with City Swimmer. I love the time that my 'breaking into' her house caused a guard to enter the building, and kill her. I also quite enjoyed the time I pick pocketed her in front of the guard (if you have played Oblivion, you get why that is hilarious). Elder Scrolls Wiki article for City Swimmer

Day 1 – Very First Video Game

My first video game was Bible Adventure. I had so much fun torturing Noah, I mean I was so sad every time he was hit by a snake, or bird. I tried the other ones, but Noah was kind of my thing for that game.

My man list

I think everyone should have a list of what they want in a partner, the things that they really cannot imagine not having in a partner (or things they simply cannot imagine their partner having), so here is mine, or at least mine as it stands now.

Musical
Smart, but education is not required
Geeky
Can use chopsticks
Good cook (hopefully American style foods, to fill the gaps in my skills)
Not a part of my main social groups
Like some of my things, accepts the rest
Have some similar hobbies, but has some of their own
Will be a dad like:
      Castle
      Booth
Be the negotiator
Have a car (part of any couple should have a car, and with my hatred of driving ...)

30 Days of Gaming

Day 1 – Very First Video Game
Day 2 – Your favorite character
Day 3 – A game that is underrated
Day 4 – Your guilty pleasure game
Day 5 – Game character you feel you are most like
Day 6 – Most annoying character
Day 7 – Favorite game couple
Day 8 – Best soundtrack
Day 9 – Saddest game scene
Day 10 – Best gameplay
Day 11 – Gaming system of choice
Day 12 – A game everyone should play
Day 13 – A game you’ve played more than five times
Day 14 – Current (or most recent) gaming wallpaper
Day 15 – Post a screenshot from the game you’re playing right now
Day 16 – Game with the best cut scenes
Day 17 – Favorite antagonist
Day 18 – Favorite protagonist
Day 19 – Picture of a game setting you wish you lived in
Day 20 – Favorite genre
Day 21 – Game with the best story
Day 22 – A game sequel which disappointed you
Day 23 – Game you think had the best graphics or art style
Day 24 – Favorite classic game
Day 25 – A game you plan on playing
Day 26 – Best voice acting
Day 27 – Most epic scene ever
Day 28 – Favorite game developer
Day 29 – A game you thought you wouldn’t like, but ended up loving
Day 30 – Your favorite game of all time

Mathematician

There once was this girl that could do math in her head. She played with numbers, she loved those numbers, they were her friends.  Society told her she should play with dolls, and talk to imaginary people.  She could not understand why she should not enjoy her friends, the numbers.  She wanted to fight the rules, she wanted her friends, but she let society win, she lost her friends, she lost her fun.

Day 30 – Your favorite song at this time last year

I had a Crystal Method thing this time last year.  "The American Way" was certainly one of my favorites.

The Perfect Imperfect

I am perfectly imperfect
I am the perfect me

People keep saying the wrongs
People keep telling me how to fix me

They say 'I love you, in spite of faults'
I say 'I love you because of your imperfections'

Day 29 – A song from your childhood

The family was all given characters from Winnie the Pooh.  There was Pooh (me), Owl (dad), Eeyore (mom), and Tigger (brother).

"Heffalumps and Woozles"

Day 28 – A song that makes you feel guilty

There is not a song that automatically makes me feel guilty, there are a couple of songs that are my go to songs when I feel guilty.  "Hard to Get" is one that helps me get through guilt.

Day 27 – A song that you wish you could play

For the most part if I want to know how to play a song I just learn it.  At some point I would like to learn a horn of some sort, and as that is as close to a song that I wish to play.

Words, Confusion

So many thoughts
So many things to say
So much to do
But so little time

A persons existance is so short
But a persons time is so long

We try to
Qualify
and Quantify
Give things words
Meanings
Definitions

Everything has a word
Every word has a thought
Can a rose really be defined?
Can the scent be told by one in such a way that another can smell the rose without smelling the rose?
Can the colours be described so that a blind man could see it in his minds eye?
Can a rose every really be described?
Can the same be used to mean the same thing always mean the same?

White is white
But also pale

We try to
Qualify
and Quantify
But all that comes from it is confusion

Day 26 – A song that you can play on an instrument

"What do you do with a Drunken Sailor" is one of the more fun songs to play.  There is no proper, no perfect, it is fun, and playful, but there are are some 'rules' to follow.  The singer plays within the rules, but plays all over.

Day 25 – A song that makes you laugh

"So What" by Pink, not much needs to be said there.

Day 24 – A song that you want to play at your funeral

I lost too many in a shoret period of time, so I have actually decided a good bit of my memorial.  There will be nods to just about every aspect of me.  There will be a rocket, and I want "Rebuilding Serenity" to play during the 'moment of silence' (which is a concept I hate with every ounce of my being) before the rocket is shot off, and while everyone watches it shoot the whole 30-40' off the ground, and someone goes and picks it up, and ...

Day 23 – A song that you want to play at your wedding

My wedding will not be normal, not even for the expected geek type wedding.  Most of the songs I have put on this 'list' will be plyed, the only one I can think of at the moment that I know I have not listed yet is "Scalliwag".

Everything has been done, is unique

Everything that is to be done
Has been done
There is nothing new
In this world

Every moment is unique

Day 22 – A song that you listen to when you’re sad

When I get sad, I get angry, so I guess I shall list my number two video game killing song.  "Another Brick in the Wall"

Day 21 – A song that you listen to when you’re happy

"Butterfly" by Crazy Town, I know it is really not a song to announce a love for such a song, but it is cute, and silly, and rather me

Set up for tearing gnome limb from limb

God damn it the gnomes keep falling into the toilet, and we have to fish them out, litteraly with fishing line. ~ B

Chips are for closers. ~ D

It was a stink demon coming out of me. ~ U

We seem to be walking into someones head. ~ J
I spend a turn puking in the corner. ~E
How did we start this adventure? ~ B
We found some maigc mushrooms ... ~A

Why are we climbing into someones head? ~ B
Better than climbing up its urithra ~ U
I keep puking in the corner. ~ E
No, it is worse than that.  You were 'I'm all better, I'm good' and now you have started all over again. ~ D

So we go find this gnome and rip him limb from limb. ~ E

Day 20 – A song that you listen to when you’re angry

As a gamer, the way I take out anger is killing things in video game land.  The song I prefer for video killings is "Because I got it Like That" by Jungle Brothers.  It started as my Halo song, now it is my angry killing things song.

Culture Rules All

Some say media rules our world
But culture rules all
A culture made by others
A culture made by those that came before
A culture only adjusted bt the now

We can never truly be new
Everything we are
Everything we do
Came from those that came before

Many say once we are gone nothing is left
But look around
How much of this was made before

How will other view us?
By what we leave?
What will they think
When they look at our reminants?

So short our lives
So long our effect

Not forever
No, no
Not forever
All becomes nothing, in the end
How long before we are erased?