Just watched Easy A, and while I really liked the movie this post is just about what it got me thinking about, and the discussion I had with a friend during it.
Towards the end there is a scene where Olive and her mother are talking. My friend teases me that I will be a mom like her. I started crying, not because being a mom like that would be bad, but because I just want to be a mom who is proud of her kids no matter what. I know if I had a daughter like Olive I would be proud, very proud. I know if I had a son like Todd I would be proud, would be more proud to have a kid like him in every way, except that he stands up for her in front of others, not just in private. But I know if I somehow ended up with someone like any of the "Christian" kids I would have serious reservations about being proud of them, not because they are "Christian", but because there are in name only. I pray I never have a kid that needs to pay someone to make them not the lowest person on the social totem pole. If I have a son that is straight edge, the perfect model of innocents, I want him to know that his mother is proud of him being everything I am not.
Some people say that we have kids just to punish them, some say we have kids to better the world, when I have kid(s) I want to have them because they will be a symbol of love, and I want to learn from what was wrong in my childhood, and take what was good. I know it is too much to say I want to be the perfect mother someday, but I can say that one day I want to be a mother, and I want to be a mother that loves her kids no matter how I ruin them.
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