Flaming S’more Martini

Why is 2 in the afternoon too early to drink?

Ingredients

• 1 oz cream de cacao
• 1 oz marshmallow vodka
• 1 oz irish cream
• 1 oz heavy cream
• 1 teaspoon chocolate syrup
• 1/4 cup crushed graham crackers
• 1 roasted marshmallow

Instructions

1. Rim martini glass with chocolate syrup. Coat in graham cracker crumbs.
2. Combine cream de cocao, vodka, irish crea, and cream in a shaker over ice. 
3. Strain into martini glass and garnish with a toasted marshmallow.

Notes

For a flaming martini float very high proof liquor like Bacardi 151 or Everclear.

Is it bad ...

That I have been up nearly 2 hours, and already want a drink?

For the most part I actually do not drink that much, but some days I want to start when I roll out of bed (or in todays case, slide out of bed)

Off to bed with me, but first ...

For the Whovians who need some help

What I drank this weekend ...

I have just a bit at the bottle of a bottle of Galliano, so have been doing mixed shots (do not do straight Galliano, it is too much, the mouth becomes one with the licorice flavour)

Fraser Shot
1/2 oz Galliano
1 oz Baileys
 (The normal recipe is double and not for shooting)

Galliano Iced Tea - The Tea
3/4 oz Galliano
3/4 oz Kahlua
(The actual iced tea version involves double this recipe and Squirt, but as I prefer shots 95% of the time, I modified)

Saturday Night Question Time

What’s the difference between you and most of the other people?
So many things, so very many things.  Having aspergers means I have learned lots of things on my own, the most important is how to learn about social things, and myself.  When I was diagnosed pre-diabetic at 13 I was told I might want to start checking my blood sugar on an at least weekly basis, I decided that I would rather learn my body so that I knew when my blood sugar was high, low, and normal, and even exactly how much of what was required to get back to normal.  I am Pansexual, of Asexuel, depending on how you view things, neither of those are normal.

Are you making some influences on the world or constantly being influenced by the world?
Neither and both.  I try to not be influenced as much as possible, because I am me and I like it that way, but to better myself needs outside help sometimes.  I mostly just influence the world by being better and making others smile.

The thing you cried for last time, does it matter to you now or will it matter to you 5 years later?

Oh, goodness, no it does not matter now.  I cannot say if it will matter in five years, a friendship ending is, well, it is, and I cannot say what it will look like to me in five year.

Geek Booze Thing of the Weekend

The GigglingYoda

Vodka (1 oz.)
Ginger Ale
1/2 a Pear (cored and peeled)
5-6 Green Grapes
2 Tsp Lime Juice
1 Sprig of Mint

Pour the vodka in the martini glass
Blenderize all of the fruit and mint into a puree and pour it in the glass (gives the swampy look
Top it off with some ginger ale (gives the swamp a bubbly look)

Not all that boozy, but rather geeky.

With all the stuff in Russia I questioned if I should go with a non-vodka recipe, I am pro LGBT, Stoli is pro LGBT, Russia is being stupid and backward, I will let people decide for themselves where they stand.

Thinky Thoughts on Loneliness

This brought up thinky thoughts.

I have a good number of people on my friends list I do not know well. Some I keep on my FB because I want to know them better, some because they teach me things, some because we have some deep connection but only that one way do we have anything, and a few that I keep thinking about cutting because we have nothing. I probably could only count 50 of my FB people as real friends, the rest are just FB friends.  Seeing the number of my FB friends actually makes me feel a bit lonely because of all the people I do not really know.

I think it is weird that this blog makes me feel less lonely.  Almost no one I know knows about it, the majority of the people reading are people I have never met.  Sometimes it feels like shouting at nothingness, although really, that is not that far off, just that there are people in the nothingness who hear it.

Dragon Age writer quits because people are dicks about her doing a good job

This is horrible.  She is an amazing person.  I only met her the one time, she made time to talk to every single person that wanted to talk to her, even though that meant standing there for nearly an hour after her Panel had ended.

The fighting may be her least favourite, but she does good work on a game where you end almost every battle covered in blood.  She made sure the story was the lead, and you know what, that is why many female gamers kept coming back.  Just like in the real world the inner battle is more important and interesting than combat.

Weather can make me smile

Ok, not the weather itself, but checking it here.  I do not look at the bad, I smile at jokes about what I should do, 'oh, its Naboo out there clearly I should do some art, and not fall for a Jedi'.

Thinky Questions ... to take my mind off other things

If you could travel to the past in a time machine, what advice would you give to the 6-year-old you?
Being smart is not something to fear, or hide.

Would you break the rules because of something/someone you care about?
Yes, ask me a hard one

Have you ever abandoned a creative idea that you believed because others thought you were a fool?
Yes, a lot, sadly

Are you afraid of making mistakes even though there’s no punishments at all?
I have aspergers, so this happens all the time.  I make a minor mistake after everything else has been going great, and start to panic, the next time I have a chance to do the rest of the things I say no because of fear of remaking that minor mistake, even though nothing happened because of that minor mistake.

If you would clone yourself, which of your characteristics would you not want to be cloned?
Part of me wants to say get rid of the Aspergers, part of me wants to say get rid of the Fibromyalgia.  Aspergers is not something I would want cured so much as I just wish it had gotten diagnosed earlier, and if they were cloning me they would know of the genetics so they would be keeping an eye out for it.  The Fibromyalgia is much more cumbersome in that its causing pain, a lot, but there again if they knew of the likelihood of getting it the clones parents could work on keeping it at bay.  If I were going to be cloned I would leave me as me, and warn the clone parents that giving clone me milk with hormones causes the boobs to get insane, which can cause back problems.

Hospitals suck

My mom was going to come home today, there were complications, she will likely not come home tomorrow either.

Been at the hospital for a while, and likely will be for a bit longer, mostly cause of keys being locked in car.  Mild panic over how she is doing means I was not thinking when I went to get something out of the trunk, and put the keys in before I closed it.

My mom and I may not see eye to eye on everything, but I still do not want to lose her.

I am a Christian, and think prayers help, but I am also a scientist, and know that it is medications that are what are really helping her.

Geek up your Friday night out (or in)

Sonic the Hedgehog shot

1 part grenadine
2 parts Menthomint Schnapps
4 parts Blue Curacao


Layer grenadine first, then the Mentholmint schnapps and Blue Curacao on top.

5 Deep Questions, With Little ol' Me

Are you doing what you truly want to do?

No, not at all, in fact, not doing any of the things I consider important.

Do you have a dream to follow?

Yes, but I think it decided to leave me behind.  Kind of sad when your dreams are not that big, but are still too big for you.

Are you proud of what you are doing or what you have done?

Nope, not at all.  I am not a horrible person, but I have way to high expectations for myself to be proud.

How many promises you have made and how many of them you have fulfilled?
I do not promise unless I can follow through.  As far as how many promises I have made, over my whole life I would say less than 100 promises, and that includes stupid things like bringing someone a birthday cake.  I do however have a 100% fulfillment rate.

Have you ever failed anyone who you loved or loved you?

I fail people all the time, I try to fail those closest to me as little as possible, but I know I have, and know I likely will in the future.  But I try to learn from the the failures, so that while failures happen in the future it is not the same failures.

Truthiness is fun

More ex-besty bitching, kind of

So the ex-besty asked earlier this week for his xbox back, this would be fine if he did not have two other xboxes that I paid for that I was letting him keep.  He found a different one, that way he got to keep those two, and have the one I have been using for a few years.  I am trading him back this one tomorrow, in prep for that I have deleted everything.

It was kind of sad deleting all the things from it, but upon realization that those few games I had bought on the xbox could be used by him if I did not delete them I got a bit of a rush.

As I continued disconnecting all my live stuff from this xbox I realized I could not delete my account while still being logged on.  I am sure there are ways to just delete everything, but each click made me smile, and I am sure there is a way to not do what I did and still erase my account for this xbox, but it made me made the pain ignorable for a few minutes.

To delete my account from this little friend I created a new account, one with account name Player1 (it was the basic suggestion), I then made it look as close to ex-besty as possible.  I deleted the last of my stuff from it, and then played a few minutes of Oblivion, just because that was the first game he bought me (well, he gave it to me saying he bought it, but it was actually a gift from someone else) and now that save will be the only thing one it when/if he ever plugs it up.

This bitch wants to leave a bitter taste in his mouth, he screwed up enough of my life and finances that making him a little sad makes me a little happy.

weird music combined with silly

I had one song stuck in my head, I got my brain to switch songs, on accident.  I thought 'I am a dork', and put it to a song, realized that made me even more of a dork.

Music is good for keeping the brain off the other things, so I will let my brain continue to ruin good music with "I'm a dork, I'm a dork, I game all night"

Surgery

My mom had one knee replaced a while back.  It took a lot from everyone in the family.  Helping her get in and out of bed, the shower, using the computer (she may be from the 40's but she is more tech savvy than most people from the 70's).

Tomorrow she is having the other knee replaced.  I am currently preparing to clean her house, and prep it for her return.  Having already done this once we know a bunch of small things that need to be prepared for her.

I know I do not post regularly at all, but with all the help required to help someone who just had a knee replacement I will either be posting less, or more, but it will be even more random stuff than it currently is.

Politics are getting sad ...

when current politicians are considered worse than Newt

That is all

Best Friend is not so much a friend anymore

At this point I am trying to figure out if the ex-besty is attempting to get me back by proving he is an adult, or if he is attempting to get everyone to think I am the reason his life is so screwed.

I can say I do not believe he has grown up, and it will take real evidence before I accept such a premise.

I can also say, I really wish I had realized how horrible he was for me years ago;  he got me to push other friends away, he got me to only accept the people he wanted around me, he got me to question myself even more than I already did.

Time for this 30 year old to figure out who she is, and who is healthy for her, herself, instead of trusting someone else.

Just get out of my out of my head

What is stuck in my head right now

Weight loss

Finally found a way around my medical issues that have caused the weight gain, and those keeping me from losing weight.

Step one: deal with those issues instead of ignoring them
Step two: lots of protein
Step three: keep to a schedule
Step four: ignore the OCD keeping me from the scale
Step five: more protein
Step six: work out at least once a day for at least 5 minutes
Step seven: celebrate the little decreases
Step eight: let myself have anything I want, in small amounts and higher quality than I used to
Step nine: lots of meat
Step ten: eat at least 3 times a day
Step eleven: no soda, lots of juice and tea
Step twelve: seriously though all meals/snacks at least 50% protein

I used to spend my money on soda, now it goes on getting better things for the snacks.  I have always drank lots of liquids, I still do, I just go from soda to tea and juice; my gaming peoples keep juice in their fridge as mixer, I commonly go through it in a day of gaming.

The other day I drove past a McDonalds, smelled it and had this sudden craving for some nuggets, and then almost immediately felt sick at the idea of eating them.  Why eat nuggets when I could go home and eat some baked chicken strips I made myself, with one of the awesome sauces I made for dipping.

Being healthier when being poor is hard, and takes a lot of time, but it is really worth it.  My energy has gone up, and with my energy going up I have been going out more, and as I go out more the more I can ignore the Aspergers voice saying the world is terrifying, well, not ignore, but turn the volume down.

How I got myself excited about emails

My Aspergers has been getting worse over the last couple of years.  It got to the point where I could barely answer the phone when I saw it was a friend calling, and it could take me a couple of days to get back to people who sent me emails or texts.

I went on medication for a couple of things a little over a month ago, and while it is helping with my Aspergers, OCD, etc, it had not been able to get me to get past things like emails.

I decided I had kept the same background for my gmail for too long, and should change it.  I went looking at the options, there are some pretty awesome ones, then I saw the option for it to change with each login.  I thought about it, and decided that would be a great way to decide which one is the forever and permanent optimal background.  I have been great ever since about clearing everything, my Inbox has minimal emails, my Trash and Spam get cleaned out every time I look at my email.  This has been great for me, my want to see the image in each space means I ignore my other issues and clean up my email.  As long as this keeps working for me I will be keeping this gmail option.

Hand started computer

My mom's computer was having issues.  I went to see if I could fix it.

I tried a couple of basic things, opened it up, tried a them again.  I realized that a fan was not spinning, so after a couple more things I tried spinning the fan as I turned it on.  As a person who knows multiple coding languages, has been known to destroy computers just by being near them, I thought I knew computers pretty well.

I had never hand started a computer before, that was just so weird.

How American media sees the world

There is a train derailment in another country, all the news agencies say the country, the number dead, show the video over and over.  However countries are not small things, and as such a large country we should know that. In 10 minutes of news coverage they continue to fail to say where exactly it happened.

It took having a friend in a country where they did this for me to notice.

In this case it was Spain, and knowing that my friends in Spain do not drive, but walk and take the train everywhere I was worried that they were on the train, that they were some of the dead.  I was worried, but kept trusting that the news would say where, or at least if any Americans were involved.  After 10 minutes without any useful information from the news I went online to see if anyone was giving useful information.

I found that it was no where near them, and then found a response that they made to someone else since the derailment.  Still, it got me thinking, this happens all the time, not derailments those are rare, but saying a large other as far as to where something happens, each time they do this there are people out there waiting to know if they should worry about their friends, coworkers, family, etc.

And that is your random over-thought thought of the day

Kids need more inappropriateness in their lives

Healthy friends, I haz them, I swear

My best friend, well, the guy who used to be my best friend, not a healthy friendship.  This has been pointed out, and this weekend showed this in black and white.

One day I was hanging out with him, one day I went out and made a new friend, and one day I hung out with a different close friend.  The day with the now ex-besty was stressful, frustrating, and rather painful.  The day making a new friend, was mildly panicked, then we bonded over some gin and juice, and it was a great day; after the bonding over booze there was bonding over silliness, geekiness, and music.  The last day of the weekend saw me hang out with another friend that thought I should do more of that making new friends, he thought this is a great idea because of lots of things, but mostly because I rarely get as happy as I was that day.

Turns out I am bad choosing who should be closest to me.  Dating and friends.  Apparently I should just have my friends vote on not just who I can date, but also those I let get close to me (mostly joking, well, about the friend part, the dating part is semi-true).